Finding trails that were hidden by broken branches and years old dust...

Life works in various ways but know one- my friend, when you start to feel happy again...

The thing about writing is
I can't tell if it's healing
Or destroying me...

Rupi Kaur

i have
what i have
and i am happy

i've lost
what i've lost
and i am 
still 
happy 

-outlook 

Do it for me*

Close your eyes and lose your mind!

Today

I hate getting flashbacks from times that I don't want to remember

...to pick up pieces of broken shell yet again...

Giving the trust away too early has always backfired, you knew it too well my child, rings in my ears...i heard your voice again!

Wipe out...
Certainly not the purpose of this excercise. 

Don't take this route ever again...

You cannot teach to love.

I allowed somebody who had history of broken relationships to be a part of my life.

Miracle

Treatment must have been success...she said aloud, while cleaning away the cold gel.
But was it a success? 

Human

Just because I don't speak about it does not mean I don't see it

Why?

🍍

Can you keep a secret?

Don't pretend

I ain't the loving kind.

Sweater Weather

It's easy to judge yourself by society's standards, where a couple of actions dictate your hair color, but I suppose that life's not like that.

New perspective

I have grown up in a generation where reality is constantly mediated.

SP@M

Water is the antidote to stupid

Age is a factor to various things.
Being older than others brings the curiosity of a child to watch their behaviour... possibly with a glass of wine in tow (ironically- aged).

More than you know

When people keep you on the suicide watch and keep the false illusion that life is good...

It’s easy to fall for words on a screen. But the real people that matter are the ones who show up.

Just because you are related, you don't always relate.

36 hours

If you could manipulate time would you do things differently?

Let's refresh memory

There are different levels of friends. They are all friends, but each type is different.

QT

For days you feel like you have a shadow that is following you around even when the sun is not out...

It bloody hurts but you keep quiet

Honesty is the best policy, do not tolerate double standards 

Probably the main reason people turn away when truth is too much to bare.

I miss her now more than ever, I miss her wise words, I miss her silly remarks...

Just NO

"I want to fidget with you!"

Really? Is that the best line you came up with?

The reason I do not leave the house without pepper spray.

Chin up

I know you think no one notices...but I do.

Salute

I salute you because you got used, but still chose to forgive. You were badly hurt, but you still chose to heal. You were taken for granted, but you chose to put in even more effort than anyone could comprehend...

The weak link

Fulfilling the duty of attending her sports day second year in a row because no one really cares...
She was brainwashed from my angle of view. She cried the moment she saw me...it broke my heart.

QT

The things you do to keep yourself busy...
No matter what I do to bring the happy hormones to the front, the pause hits and you have to climb down.

Great start for any week

When you want to run and feel the breeze but you've pulled a muscle thanks to carrying a tiny elephant from A to B and they have no recollection of it...

Quiet mornings

We all have been touched by depression, anxiety etc 
Life seems to throw a lot of hurdles our way to make us stronger even when we are already on our knees...

Time

It has been two weeks...
Two weeks where you either find yourself or lose yourself.
Time heels everything? pathetic people
People are pure animals and let each other down.

Silence hits the hardest

Walls have stopped caving in, they said it will get better, she will get better...

They lied, she turned for worse and even with MIRACLE in tow this pain will be a reminder of "it" creeping through her.

They don't know where is the root, because it's hiding and showing in too many places at once.

Take her pain away that's all I beg of you.

Let's rhyme for a second

Your vibe attracts your tribe. 

We all go through different institutions from young age, we are taught things and then we keep on looking at the things that we are good at.
After years of looking, you still navigate through life and then realise why am I looking at what I'm good at, I should be concentrating on who I am and polish it!
Feels like I've played this game wrong all along...

skinny dipping

Sometimes the only way to stay sane is to go a little crazy.

Routine, it's all about routine.
Rolling in the grass or running around the streets...do whatever makes you move forward!

Lets be real

Things do come and go.
Everyone has set goals, even if you haven't admitted it yet to yourself, you have goals you are working towards.

Don't you dare to call her an introvert!

Possibly the most surreal experiences lead to new discoveries!
But I'll join that hiking trip anyway...one day can't hurt.
I shall ask that in 72 hours though!

You are beautiful no matter what they say...

Mirror

Yes, I know that I'll be fine and that eventually, things will work for themselves out.

Falling apart

When you are told not to do the research and you silently do it anyway...
And now you know it is so much worse than they have been telling you. Why soften the blow? I have access to research tools, I would of done it sooner if you were honest with me from the start...

C2C

Brain is just a muscle that needs a little pampering and sometimes that pampering is not switching it on for a while.
Leg muscles on the other hand could use some magic!

The countdown starts here.

Sun drying out the waterfalls.
Wind putting out the fires.
That tiny cloud of smoke, leaving your lungs along with the bird symphony, leaving the scrutiny outside the door.

Let's try and make today better.

Silence

During the period of silence you start to evaluate the need of communication.
The bridge has been halfway crossed and right now the wind is strongly blowing you back.
Maybe you are not ment to cross this bridge. Maybe this was a wrong decision. Maybe you have made the wrong turn and have to take a few steps back. 
Time to remove these steel boots and get the compass ready. 

Who?

Under European Convention on Human Rights Article 2, we all have a right to life. But what life means to you?

Feeling like the world is against you?
Try to let out the breath you have been holding.
Feelings and reality of things are not reflected the same way.

Slow down

Sometimes the time is the key, sometimes it's the silent killer.

Makings mistakes is better than faking perfection.

My biggest problem?

I notice everything!

Of course I talk to myself.
Sometimes I need expert advice.

Q

Normal.

What is normal?

Who sets out the standard for normal?

What is reasonably normal?

I'm weak, and what's wrong with that?

Boy, oh boy I love it when I fall for that...

AJR - Weak