When people keep you on the suicide watch and keep the false illusion that life is good...

Hearing what footprints you have left in other people's life's and what chaos it would cause if you go through with it.
Slow down, there is no comfort in the panic.
Seek help, seek out positivity, seek out happy crowd. It might feel hard but it sets you free!
Just let go and set yourself free, fall in love with new hobbies, meet people, laugh till you cry but don't give up, it stops being black and white...
You might feel invisible but be assured people are aware, don't be mad.
When you stop being mad and angry, you feel sorry for the people or the situation that put you there in the FIRST place.