Melancholy

Most beautiful things hide the deepest scars.

I just hope I hide them well. 

Marvel

Sometimes being poetic about life can polish some hidden gems on the way to discovering yourself.

Filled with wonder and astonishment- souls flow through tidal waves against the shore.

You come across so many different souls throughout your journey, embrace them all, even if they stay only for a little while.

Recharge yourself with positive energy and set the course forward,dance your way through every breath. Do not let the fear ground you.

Footprints

Annual reminder of lost souls has approached at the speed of light.

Your heart can only take so much and your soul has had enough. Been a minute since you cruised the roads of freedom heading to nowhere and at the same time - the place you had to lay those flowers down...

Breath. That breeze was their reminder of the hugs that are now lost to the world.

You have so much to look forward to  do not let those dimmed lights confuse your spirits.

She has changed.

Difference between self preservation and appearing as if everything is OK has blury lines.

"You look happier", is the painful reminder of the battles you fought which no one was there to witness. They only see the aftermath and the "compliment", has turned into a harsh reminder - you've been through few hells, you didn't go ahead with what your mind was throwing at you at your darkest moments, you still came through for the souls that were struggling but needed that silent support and occasional appearance so they can let out their own demons...

Balance

Perfection is impossible to achieve no matter what it is aimed at.

Balance is what works. Day to day activities, work, family and personal life - seeking balance in all chapters brings power to life.

Occasionally, you will find yourself removing certain chapters from your life to seek the balance back to reality. Do not hold grudges, just remember why you removed them when you thought the time was right.

Probation

 You stumbled onto the path less than 365 days ago and did not make a full swing around the sun once, and already you managed to make me doubt the choices surrounding your past and the existing presence. There was smiles, laughs and general worry about the silver lining, but falling gets easier with age.

With a bitter taste the personal space has slowly gained its own reigns back and no silly remark or bribery will wipe out the stain you have left on this silky thread. 

Today is the day where I set myself free again and make the memory of it.

Somehow it's so much more easier when the lesson is over before your probation was...

Blues

 Deleting old version of me. It's expired.

Happy

Forever chasing deadlines brought never-ending calendar backlog and now with seasonal changes in the diary, the time has arrived to explore the saved coordinates from the backlogged freedom list.

From weddings to finally stepping on the stage for one last time to honour the achievement that has been long overdue to celebrate. 

Few long months of bittersweet evenings staying of the grid has given space to recharge the spirit, body and soul. Perhaps this summer will bring that sweet-sweet smile that has been hiding behind those ever colour changing irises...

Happiness has sacrifices that are necessary to keep this state sacred. You want to know a secret? Well you ain't ready for it. :) 

Silence

Without a doubt - typing a few words in certain sequence brings certain freedom to the spirit, perhaps it even gives you wings once you print those words out...

Silence is underestimated but my silence comes once I no longer want to know what keeps you going, what have you been doing and where your horizon is taking you.

Sometimes silence comes when you have exhausted the avenue where you tried to make them listen... we all stop caring eventually. 

Beyond Today

Lately writing has mainly touched the rough edges...

Silver cannot polish itself but it definitely still shines.

With heavy heart stomping into glass box after little sunshine in a vase, mood definitely has lifted by 15%. Spring in this head is still loading and it will fully load by the time her death anniversary will arrive.

Keeping that legacy alive has become a second nature.

But remember homeless souls are not afraid of much these days. Picking the rhythm of new creative spark will sound eventually like a broken record.

Silently reaching for camera is one escape that allows to dance away in the moonlight, while storms rush away from horizon. 

She had enough*

 Being happy is not a sin. World had tested sunshine and rain.

Just step your best foot forward. Invisibility cloak on or off, it does not matter -you stood up for yourself. 

And now I get it, just make the best of what you have. Running away from the lesson was not an answer until this soul exploded and laid down the brickwork of what needed to be done. 

I will no longer be there in a heartbeat...

 

Bug

 Uncertainty is never enjoyable. It is convenient for some in this day and age. 

The interest will not always mirror the investment. 

Just learn to love yourself a little bit more daily and you will reach a point where you will be glad with most decisions. 

Home

 You do not get to keep everyone in your life forever. 

Moonlight

 Your voice is a powerful tool and sometimes it's healthy to let it shine through the darkness that has been surrounding you like a fog.

Iceberg

 Miracles happen when you forgive.

Ego does not want forgiveness.

2022

 ...after all this time?

- ALWAYS